"Spring Cleaning"

It's funny how sometimes in life it takes a couple of steps back and a break in one's steady routine for one to realize that maybe things are not ok. I can honestly say I'm the master of over analyzing things, it doesn't matter if it's a problem I'm going through or someone close to me... It really consumes me till I can find a way out of the knot. It just so happens that sometimes you just gotta let it be... Sometimes life adjusts itself up. Nobody is anybody else's "savior", specially if one is not ready to be "saved". So here note to self:
- Stop thinking you can help everybody.
- When someone come to you, give your honest opinion and let it be.
- Don't get so involved.
- Drop the illusion that everyone is always crystal clear.
- There's always two sides to a story.
- Focus on you goals.
- Be the best that you can, and be happy with that.
- Stop thinking that for some reason you were born with super powers! (so wish it was true)
- Don't second guess yourself.
- If S**t happens shake it up, and life goes on.
- Try to be happy with whatever you do in life!
I really hope I can keep reminding myself of those notes! I just want a simple life, the minimun amount of drama possible, and good people around me. That's all!
No hard feelings, judgment, or all that nonsense! Let's focus and aim for our goals!
Amen :)

Living and Learning....

You know I consider myself to be a strong person, but after a series of events in the past couple of months, I really got myself wondering and re-evaluating, lots of things in my life. Since little I always "carried the weight of the world" on my back, I always felt it was my responsibility to always help and understand people, it doesn't matter what. Always trying to understand why people do things the way they do and react the way they do, at times I really believe I even make excuses for people's behavior... but when it comes to myself and my actions, I'm always tough and critical! I come to realization that I'm human like anybody else, and sometimes enough is enough. I don't understand in parts why people in general wear so many facades. I know most times it's an insecurity thing, walls, protection, whatever. Sometimes the facades are the very reason of lots of problems in people's lives. Wouldn't it be easier just to be? Wouldn't it cause less confusion, unnecessary pain and deception? Maybe I'm too straight forward and blunt, and that might blind my ability to see or be any other way... I'm just tired of the masks and the false "personas". Honestly if someone is not to appreciate a person for what they are then why waste time with hatefull, childish actions. People should just stop wasting time trying to be what they are not in order to impress other people! And if you don't think someone is worth your time, then maybe you should not waste it on that specific person! Bottom line is through the deceptions life teaches you, all you can do is pick up the pieces and go on.

Almighty?!?

In the 27 years of my life I have met all kinds of different people; different countries, different cultures, rich, poor, preppy, hippie, laid back, control freaks, etc. And I love the diversity, it is amazing how much you can learn about yourself when exposed to extremes. When you think you have gotten yourself figured it out, there it comes a different situation, a crisis or even a cause for celebration and you learn something new. What really bothers me is how people think they can just know so much about other people's lives. And not only talk about it but also judge it. Don't we all have enough demons to deal with of our own? Why is it that we must waste so much time and energy on somebody else's life and not in a helpful, constructive way?
As I'm typing, I get the picture of the little angel and the little devil in each side of my head arguing back and forth like in the cartoons. And as one side says "It's ok, people sometimes don't want to face their own demons, so they have to talk about somebody else's problems." The other side replies " Are kidding me? People should just get a grip and go about their own problems." It leaves me wondering... When is enough, enough? When should we stop accepting such behavior? How much understanding can one person be, without being insensitive? Why must people be so negative? Maybe I'm crazy and I just worry way too much, but sometimes i just feel like saying " I don't care! If it's not something good, constructive or even something your dealing with in your personal life, keep it to yourself".
I wish I could only have some answers to all the questions in my head...